A Non-Sewing Look Back at 2018

Typically I spend the last week of the year I taking a look back at what I’ve read, how my skating year went, how much Burda impressed us, how successful my sewing has been, and what I want to do next year.  I’ve followed this schedule every year since I started blogging.  This tradition harkens back to the days when my blog was Sew Skate Read and not Doctor T Designs.  At the time, these year end wrap ups made more sense; I’d posted a lot about all of those topics back in the day, but much less so now.  While I’m still reading quite a bit, I just didn’t feel like a book review post really fit in with my blog anymore; the focus just hasn’t been on reviewing books, except those related to sewing, and I really wasn’t excited by the prospect of doing a full post on the books I’ve read this year.  Possibly this speaks more to the books I’ve read this year than anything else, but I just haven’t felt motivated to do a year end wrap up post, so for the first time in the history of my blog I won’t be doing my traditional Reading Roundup.

I’m not doing a skating review post for a similar reason.  I think I’ve known that I’m done competing for a while now, but this year really solidified that for me.  I have been on skates, but not seriously training.  I am working on maintaining and upgrading my judging credentials (which will take up a significant portion of the month of January for me), but that sort of activity doesn’t really make for good blog fodder, and, in general, I think it’s actually much better to leave this part of my life off of social media now, for hopefully obvious reasons.  Skating is something that’s always going to be at the edges of my life (well, maybe more than just at the edges), but not in a way that is convenient to write about on a public forum.  Suffice to say, it’s still a significant part of my life, but is no longer a significant part of my blog, so it doesn’t really warrant an end-of year post any longer.

As a physical outlet, I have been actively participating in Lightspeed Saber League, a competitive lightsaber combat sport, which has also been taking up a good deal of time.  I’ve been with this group for several years now, and I really love what this sport is growing into.  Again, my own involvement is not really worthy of generating it’s own year end post, but it is worth mentioning as being an important part of my year.  With the lack of skating I needed to find some way to stay physically active, and this has been it.  I’m definitely not competitive in this sport on the same level that I was in skating, and I think that is ok.  The competitive side of me needs a bit of a rest, I think.  In the past I’ve always been the super competitive kid, even for things that I had to work really hard at.  But it seems I’m not quite that way anymore.  Something is slightly off.  Everything just… feels different. 

It’s a bit disconcerting, actually, to have this sort of mellow empty space that used to be filled by something as driving as the need to skate.  Skating and competing have been such a large part of my life for so long that I’m not really sure how best to make space for new, different things.  How best to rearrange my life.  I’m not entirely ready to let go of the some things, but I also feel like I don’t have enough time to spend it on things that ultimately don’t add up to something beneficial.  It’s perplexing, somewhat.  Ultimately. this has really felt like a year of preparation for transition.  Nothing has really changed for me this year; I’m in the same job, in the same activities, without any new major life goals.  But I can feel this starting to change.  I’m starting to realize I do have new goals, and I have new ambitions.  I’ve been lost for a little while.  Likely due to exhaustion more than anything else, I expect, but still lost.  I won’t say I’m really done being lost yet, but I will say that 2018 has allowed me to wander around in an unhurried way, to look around for a new path, and I know I really needed that.

Looking ahead, I expect to have a very busy 2019, with hopefully lots of changes to come.  I will be traveling a lot to judge skating competitions, which will be exciting, and I hope to be looking for a new job.  I’ve been working as an independent contractor since I graduated, and it feels like time to move on. There are a lot of reasons for this, not least of which is that I’m feeling really bored with my current work situation.  This isn’t a change that will be happening right away, but it is coming, and I am anticipating a radical change in both my schedule and wardrobe needs.  Possibly it will mean less sewing (both for me and for others), probably it will mean less blogging, but generally I hope it means more stimulation and excitement surrounding my work.  It feels like time for change, and even though changing up my year-end blog routine is a small one, it feels like the right step for direction I’m headed.


10 thoughts on “A Non-Sewing Look Back at 2018

  1. OK first, I’m just really glad you are still blogging. A lot of people have moved away from it in favor of IG or whatever else and it’s just not the same. Second, it’s your blog, so you can talk about whatever you want. You have so many fans now that you could write about fence posts and we would still follow along. It’s lovely and brave of you to share about your transitions and thoughts about change, and it’s very relatable. I’m in a weird holding pattern myself, trying to figure out a couple of life situations.
    There’s something to be said for a boring and unfulfilling job–some of the most creative and exciting times of my life were when my job was so dull it allowed all my energy and imagination to go to outside activities. But that only lasts for so long, and you know when it’s time to move on.
    Based on my limited perspective, I have to say that you are a fantastic writer and if you’re not already writing professionally I suggest that you consider it.
    Good luck to you and I look forward to reading more in 2019.

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    1. Thank you! I am not writing professionally as such, but I will say it is a large aspect of what I do at the moment (I teach other people to write… and do math… and science…). Another person mentioned technical writing as a potential job and I thought that sounded interesting. Right now I’m studying for an exam I will be taking in January, but after I get back from my trip I will definitely be looking at potential jobs with more focus and attention.

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  2. Wishing you all the best for the future whatever path you choose. I like sewing blogs, and am most interested in your Kibbe and sewing content, but always respect that it is your blog to write whatever you like, and up to me if I want to read or not 🙂 Happy 2019

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  3. Totally get what you’re saying about transitions, and I can say you do well to stay curious and brave! It serves you well over time. Echoing what the others said about writing – you should give it a go! You are good at it.

    I do hope you keep posting (i appreciate the sewing most of all, but ALL your posts are interesting!), as someone esle said, many are moving away (and then coming back to blogs, lol ) and instagram is just not the same. At all.

    Wishing you all the best! ♥

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  4. I understand completely how you feel. I felt the same way when I had to give up cycling (following an accident, a job change, and a house move) after training 6 days a week. It can take some time to adjust when something, like skating for you, has been a big part of your identity.

    Having said that, I DO hope you keep blogging! Yours is the only sewing blog I read, and I especially love your pattern reviews – so useful to have a nicely curated summary of what’s out there!

    Thank you for all you do, and I wish you the best of luck for 2019 and finding your new path.

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  5. I always enjoy your posts, and found you through the original Sew Skate Read blog. Since them I have had to reluctantly cease ice-skating due to study & work commitments.

    Identifying that you are in a transitional place is good, sitting in the space and being reflective about it is often very productive, though may not initially appear to be.

    All the best for 2019!

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